Monday, January 23, 2017

Life is a lot of work

I have been spending a lot of time recently reflecting much more than usual. I attribute this to my time in therapy and my attempts to figure out who I am and who I strive to be. I hope to learn how I negatively affect my own situation through my thinking and actions so that I may change that. In general, I am a very black and white type of person. I feel most uncomfortable in the grey. Having a type A personality definitely contributes to this. I often expect much more of myself than anyone else possibly could and tend to put a lot of pressure on myself. I need to give myself more credit for all I am doing and stop putting so much pressure on myself for the things I am not.

Today I had a sort of revelation. Before I forget, because I am sure I will need to be reminded of this in the future, I wanted to capture it and this seemed like a good way. 

Life is hard work. The "work" has many different shapes and forms and the impact it has on each person will vary. Most of the time, we are dealing, often simultaneously, with many different things that require work. Raising little kids, working, staying at home with kids, being a wife, dealing with financial hardships, employment, death, sickness, caring for loved ones, volunteering, getting healthy... and the list goes on and on. When we assign ourselves too many things, we get overwhelmed and exhausted. This is something I do all the time to myself. I feel like if I stop and take inventory of all the "work" currently in my life it would help me to give myself credit. Also, to take a look at the things that maybe I need to give myself to break and hold off on that work until the load is redistributed so to say. What isn't helpful is putting pressure on myself that I need to work on this and that... take inventory of what work you are currently in and decide if you really have the energy to add that in. My current priorities are work, the kids and Steve and the house. Those things are enough to exhaust me. What I don't need is to put more pressure on myself to add more things to that right now. When you feel some reprieve in one area you can start adding the work to another area. How many ways do you want to divide yourself in?

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