It feels so ironic to read my last post now. Later that day, my husband lost his job. While that in itself is hard enough, this was done unjustly. He has worked for a small company for the last 4 years, with people we considered family, and they let him go with absolutely no warning. The heartache we feel is so great at this moment. I am not even sure we have had a moment to really consider the financial implications as we are still processing what has happened. I would do anything to take away the devastation, betrayal and rejection he's feeling.
Over the last week I have been trying even harder than usual to focus on the positive. I can feel myself getting overwhelmed and am also doing my best to be aware of that and take care of myself before I fall apart. Its much harder than it should be. I am very lucky that I have three cute, funny, adorable children to provide endless distractions!
With this weekend being Easter we have plans to see some close friends and family and I am looking forward to the further distraction that it will provide. I am so thankful for the supportive people in our lives. Without them, I am sure I would fall apart.
This morning, while I head out to run errands ALONE, I am thankful to have Steve home. Spending time with each other and the kids is the silver lining in all of this.
Today I am thankful for my job. At this point in my life, without it, I am not sure I'd be defined as more than "mommy". While Mondays are not the easiest... I am always appreciative of the quiet and freedom going into work on Mondays brings.
And when this is where you work its also hard not to be thankful.
Being positive in today's world seems much more difficult than it should be.
While I am on a personal journey to learn what my feelings are, how to control my reactions and how to live for today I could use a place to put all the positive things going on. If you choose to focus on gratitude you may notice how much more positive you feel.
Today, I am thankful for the beautiful city that I live in. How lucky am I to be able to see the ocean whenever I'd like?
